You are the chosen one

My friend just has a miscarriage- Not accidental. But she has to because she is going to undergo her brain tumor treatment.

She is an office mate , an ex colleague and of course a dear friend. We chat sometimes through office instant message but seldom see each other though we work in the same office. She is in 3rd floor and I am on 2nd floor. I got to know about her latest update through her blog.


What is happening to me huh? Pergi berkebun kat Farm Ville. Got to know about my close friend's mishap from Internet. Doesn't real world matter to me anymore ? :( :)


I know she does not want my symphathy. She does not need anybody’s as well. Still, I am saddened but the latest news.


She would have had 5 children alive. But she lost 3 of her angels in her earlier years trying for a baby. Then she has her current daughter –  her one and only buah hati pengarang jantung .


Allah Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang . Allah gives her Dania and then only tries her with such a disease. Yes it is not cancerous and for that she is thankful. Yet it is still a disease that she must brave.


Her first diagnosed with a brain tumor was in 2005 (if I am not mistaken). I can still remember the kelam kabut that we went through when she fainted in a meeting room. She always had this migraine or terrible headache prior to that day but further diagnose confirmed that there was a tumor. She underwent the operation – where most of her hair got to be removed to facilitate surgery. She recovered then but still on MRI check up on a yearly basis until recently, when her Dr detects another growth.


She opts for a laser treatment this time as the risk would be slightly lower. The operation is scheduled to take a place this week but that was before she knew that she was pregnant. Now she is recuperating and her brain surgery has been rescheduled.


She will survive this time just as she survived the other 2 miscarriages, 1 forced birth, 1 forced abortion, her previous tumor, her daugther’s clubfoot – and many others that come her way. She will.


I know YOU WILL. One day you will look back and see that you have faced all with faith, and dignity –your inner strength and spirit are so unbeatable – so unwavering.


You are so damn lucky because Allah has chosen YOU (instead of us) to face such dugaan/obstacles in life. – dan dia tidak akan menguji hamba –hamba dengan sesuatu yang hamba-hambanya tidak mampu. Allah chose YOU because you are so much stronger than the rest of us. Don’t you EVER give up on hopes and in life dear-


PS: I may not understand what you are going through (berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul) - though you look and write :) as happy and cheerful as you are but only GOD knows what you are actually feelings.


I am always here to lend you an ear or a shoulder to cry on. I cannot make it right or make the pain dissapear but I will  always pray for your well being.


Nasi Minyak this week ok :)

*Hug* from me to you.