It only happened when I was pregnant

Pregnancy is one of life's miracles and wonders- Now you are pregnant now you aren't :-D


What I remember the most was the chaotic mind - struggling to find peace with my inner self- to stay calm - to stay rational, to pray hard- to pray for the best- to not imagine the worst


To be careful at all times - what I saw- what I heard, what I whispered at the back of my mind- all things matter you know


Throughout the 9 months, as I treasured the moment(and ditch it :)- because I looked like an ugly penguin or fat polar bear), I did face the unthinkable and earth shattering situation that took my soul away :)- you will know what I am rambling about in seconds :)


When I was pregnant with Er- I was awaken up in the middle of the night because a rat bit me- serious k- it bit my toe and I was pretty sure it was a rat- (because my parents' house had rats then and we were in a mission to catch them (letak gam or perangkap).I screamed like I was being strangled and pushed/kicked :) my husband's so hard- trying to wake him up (though I think he had awaken, out of shock of my loud scream) - I said, 'tikus tikus gigit kaki orang' and in a split of second he stood up and the next thing I realized, he was already with a broom knocking the floor - I said,'no don’t kill it - did you knock it out? no no' - you know what I was afraid then? If my sweet Er took some resemblance of the rat- or some part of it yang my husband da terketuk :(-I never stopped praying since the day – pray that my baby would be all right – tak terperanjat-my first question when I regained my consciousness was - is she ok? - is she normal?


When I was pregnant with Mar, everywhere I went, I came across people with cleft lip/cleft palate and I prayed hard she would not have it -masa tak pregnant takda la pulak i terserempak ngan they all - I do pity those people- most whom I came across were already in adulthood or mid life - So I guess that there were no treatment when they were babies - but nowadays this kind of defects can be rectified and babies will look normal- yet nobody wants their babier to have it if possible- my first question after awaken up from the c-sect was, "is her lip ok ?" i remember that I asked the same question over and over to my mum, untie, husband and nurse - they were all were obliviously - not aware what the fuss was all about- they all ingat I still lalok dengan drug lagi :).


What happened during Er and Acha's pregnancy cannot top what I faced during Qayyum's- that was the worst of all - it almost coz my jantung melayang :)- I tidied up my kitchen and put all the waste and unused things into a plastic bag (beg sampah plastic hitam tu) and put it aside at back porch- the next day, i casually grabbed it - to bring it to the front gate - to the bin - when I suddenly realized that I was actually holding a moist, hard-soft small creature - to my disbelief and astonishment,  I realized that I was actually holding a frog- I screamed like no other's business - and almost fainted then and there- eeeeee gelii - rasa tak nak dah tangan i yang da tercemar ni eeeeeeeee :)


Not to forget a few weeks before that I terpegang mengkarung - kerasss ja - eeeeeeeee - tu pun jantung i dah gugur juga but dia keras ja ok la sikit ni katak you eeeeee- lembik2 keras berlendir cam tu eeeeee

I am almost can feel it in my hand now heheh- luckily my little prince charming looks as handsome as the prince’s frog (after the frog is turn into a human prince lah :)) . Q looks normal since baby but there were times when I think his legs were too bended like a frog's legs - anyway that was only my imagination running wild - of course la baby of 1 or 2 months old memang kaki bengkok sokmo especially kalau tak bengkung- but mana tau kan nanti dia masuk sukan terror acara melompat hehehe


Whatever it is , kenala banyak banyak berdoa - always pray for the best - and may all the bad things dijauhkan – insyaAllah and alhamdulillah


How about you dear dear semua yang pernah pregnant?:) yang belum tu moga moga akan berjaya menempuhnya dengan kekuatan mental dan jiwa - physical sudah semestinya la :)


Until then - cheers