To complete the incomplete and moving on

assalamulaikum, happy federal day :)


Busy days for the past week sampai ke today (tak masuk busy sebab kat office dah tertinggal kerja banyak :), lepas cny ni pengsan nak catch up) - Now is part 2 of settling whatever yang still need to be settled. Taking over things half way are more difficult than starting them from the scratch. Tired, serabut and mind boggling :) juga.


We went through puluhan of keys last Sunday, test and try and label what keys belongs to which kedai  (yang buat banyak sebab setiap satu kunci ada 2,3 copy, satu rumah ada 3, 4 set siap ngan pintu bilik, pintu depan, pintu belakang, nasib pintu toilet tak ada kunci :))-dari beribu ribu lemon, adalah 1% kunci yang berguna, yang lain tak tau kunci zaman mana. We check electricity and water meters and try to match them with the bil in order to know which account goes to what. Tak masuk lagi some of the bills  yang my dad tak sempat bayar from mpk, dbkl etc (cukai taksiran, duit sampah, etc). We all tak pernah ambil tahu (sebab dulu bukan hal kami untuk menyibuk, my dad was his own boss). He had his own unique way of doing his things. Old style way :), or what I call as "cowboy way", he tagged keys by tali tangsi bercolor merah, hijau dan lain lain, dia bayar duit sampah and some other town council bill every three months and so on. Senang cakap hanya dia yang tahu apa yang dia buat. Semua benda tidak setempat. He has gone but we need to continue what he has started and things that he wanted to accomplish but tak kesampaian. Taking over, we hope we can start afresh systematically. To do it our way, the more organised way lah kononnya.


His new shops, tak sempat dicat, pintu toilet belum pasang and piping and drainage system not in good order yet. If I were to be left alone dengan semua benda benda ni memang triple serabut kepala, dan tak tau nak buat apa (tengok keadaan keliling ja dah serabut and rasa nak menangis). Nasib baik saya diapit oleh dua lelaki gagah dan perkasa :) (mr hub and my brother ) and sama sama we try to complete whatever he left sebaik mungkin and hopefully it will benefit all of us.


Alhamdulillah, we manage to find a contractor who will help us to complete what is necessary. My dad used to do all this construction things sendirian berhad but sad to say that we all bukan macam dia - we are not hand-ons. Selagi tak settle,  I akan rasa serabut but I try to do it one at a time and hopefully semuanya selesai. Dia dah completekan yang susah susah and yang tinggal cuma touch up - but I nampak susah dan berat sebab ini bukan my ordinary task.


Anyway, I am taking a break and bertukar angin tomorrow. We are going back to Mr Hub's hometown, visiting my MIL, (the closest person after a mother once could have is MIL). I am reluctant to go anyway since it has only been 2 weeks since my dad said goodbye, part of me, however, want to go back hometown and be in the crowd of family so that my inside would feel less empty and less lonely.


Deep in my heart, I always know that it does not matter where I go, my parents are always in me. And they are always here 


To all, happy holiday and be safe.


ps:
Sedih itu senang terlahir dalam tulisan, tak kelihatan tatkala berdepan bertentang mata :). Pilu itu berada didalam hati yang paling alam tak ternampak dek mata kasar.
Thank you semua kerana membaca rententan rentetan sedih hati saya for the past weeks.  Thank you for reading (read as "thank you for listening and for being there for me")
Love Ermayum