That motherly feeling

I take half day today attending my girls kindergarden. It is a teacher-parent-day - A report card day.

Ma is excellent. She is at number 1 in her class and in all 4-years- classes (total 3 classes) and she is one of a few children who are on the top list among all the 4 years old in the 3 schools (the kindergarden has another 2 branches elsewhere). I am so proud of her that I can feel tears in my eyes.

I know that she is only 4 years old - no big deal - but the fact that she is doing so great surprises me. Not to mention that she is the difficult one. She is "Malcolm in the middle", the most spoil brat among her other siblings and the most naughty and manipulating one so far.
Yet, she got 100% on all her subjects ( I know that kindergarden is so easy but still she scores 100% heheh).

Ma catches up faster that her sister (not sure if it is due to the kindergarden or what as I sent her sister to a different kindergarden when she was 4 years old). Now Ma is already able to read  whereas her sister was struggling with 1 syllabus sound at the same age back then.

Her sister, Er is 6 years old . She is doing great but she always rushes into things. She likes to jumps into conclusion/answer. Her math  always shows careless mistakes.  She got 100% for Eng, Science, and BM but got only 88%  for her math . Still overall percentage is 92.5%.

Up to today, I didn't realize that there are stiff competition among the children in her kinder garden :) or maybe the teachers should make the exam tougher. As I voiced out the concern, the principal said , "Oh this is hard enough already as this is like standard one exam" :).  Overall percentage among all differs only by 0.1% or 0.2% :).

Anyhow, I tell Er that this is  good enough but she should always aim better next time.  She makes me proud as well. I am happy that she can read well in English and Bahasa and when not rushing she is good with her Math. This will facilitate her entry into the national school next year.

Talking about "that" motherly feeling - it comes without warning. It comes out of sudden and I will feel so touch and heavy at heart -it comes rushing over me together with happiness and proud and at time it caught me off guard. And tears well :)

The first 'one' caught me by surprised at Er  4-year-old- graduation- day  , 2 years ago. Looking at her, on the stage, dancing, just made me so want to cry. I know I should not cry - It was happy moment what.

I don't know if others feel the same for their children but it is one of those feelings that I treasure, as it is felt only at special occasion where words cannot described the happy tears.  At the same time, I would feel sad knowing that my little girls has grown for another year and becoming a big girl. Next thing I know, she will be graduating from a college and is getting married :)

I love you Er - you are the sunshine who brightens my day

I love you Ma - you are the stars who lights up my night.

PS: I don't really take school or learning or performing well so seriously at these age - I want my children to enjoy adolescent life and school without being pressure. I want them to follow their own pace. I want them to take things easy. Most importantly, I want them to know the importance of education and try to do the best that they can.

Anyhow, I was not that brigther or smarter child when I was little :) and I saw many of my smarter friends does not really turn out smart also at the end of the day. I believe in value  (of  the things that we do)and reason (why we do it), faith( you must do it sincerely "ikhlas") and consistency to ensure success (you must do it over and over not one time or 2 times) .   So my children must understand why they go to school, why they need to study, why they need to score and etc.  I have yet to teach them all. Yeah yeah I agree it is a bit phisolophical :)